ZOOMDOUT · Penis Envy Mushroom Trip Report

2/28/2015

The phallically-shaped mushroom strain of Psilocybin Cubensis is aptly named, "Penis Envy," for it's obvious visual innuendos. A ZOOMDOUT head and twitter tripper, Stephen, recently ingested 2.5 grams of the particularly potent PE Psilocybin Cubensis mushroom strain. It was a tremendous fractalverse-surfing trip, to say the least.

I am thrilled to feature this diligently written experiential report of an end-of-the-year psychedelic experience undergone at the Miami Botanical Garden. Please enjoy this ZOOMDOUT Mushroom Trip Report.

Maya Gold: The Garden, The Stargate and Divine Communion

Penis Envy (P. Cubensis) Mushroom Strain.

Name: Stephen Overton
Sex: Male
Substance: PE (P. Cubensis)
Dose: 2.5 grams
Setting: Miami Botanical Garden
Shulgin Rating Scale: 3, 4.

I was able to get a half ounce of some extremely potent penis envies. I turned them into chocolates which I coined as "Maya Gold" due to the gold foil I wrapped them in. I put 2 grams in each chocolate. I have done plenty of DMT, Salvia Divinorum and psychedelic mushrooms (level 3/4 experience) before but none of those experiences ever came close to this one.

After planning this trip for a week with my friend Jason, the time had finally arrived, the evening of December 28th, 2014. It was a nice Miami Sunday. My friend Jason came over to my condo in Brickell and we debated for about an hour whether to take these, or not. While I was very optimistic about the whole scenario, Jason was trying to reason with the reality of the time frame, set and setting. After debating we decided against doing them, but then my friend Z (a shaman friend who provided me with the PE mushrooms) called exactly at the moment we were about to call the trip off, and convinced Jason and I to take the sacrament. We ate the Maya Gold with ease and started driving to this botanical garden for our journey. The time was 6:30 pm.

I took an extra .5 grams of raw mushroom since I had tripped on 2 grams about a week prior to this particular trip. Jason started driving to the botanical garden that was visually stimulating and had really cool glass art streaming throughout the nature trails.

The Medicine hit me within 30 minutes and I was back to that dreamy “shroomy” place. We arrived to the botanical garden and after Jason used the restroom once the mushrooms started kicking in for him.

We walked all the way to the end of the nature trail and found a bench under some welcoming trees. I chose to trip at Fairchild Botanical Gardens to be in a rural environment but there was a point it didn't matter where I was because all the molecules of this dimension merged with other dimensions. By this time (a little over an hour) the medicine kicked in hard. The physical third dimension started breaking down into molecular fractals and fused with the hyper etheric dimensions. All dimensions were indistinguishable from each other and defied linguistic explanation. At one point I closed one eye and left the other open to experiment. I was halfway in the inner dimension and outer dimension but then it got to a point where it didn't matter. Eyes opened or closed, I was completely transfigured and enveloped within hyperspace. It appeared that all of the dimensional realms were both macrocosmic and microcosmic at the same time.

I surfed the universe and the molecular world by basking in the infinite with the help of some entities. I gave myself completely and wholly to the infinite source of all creation and emanated the vibration of unconditional love and pure gratefulness to the presence of the ancient eternal. I was in an encompassing state of pure awe and bliss—completely disconnected from my body with 360 degree vision. A sensation of initiation overtook me as I became a benevolent entity myself. It became apparent that I was privileged to surf the sacred dimensions. I thought I've astrally projected before through deep meditation, but this was the real deal.

There was one transcendental being I met and remembered vividly. It materialized, within the light encoded dimension and came down upon me to greet me. Its head was huge and cone like. It took up my whole vision. It peered deep into my soul. It had an oval shaped head with photonic fractaling eyes making up its existential structure and existence. This interaction took place for a short period before we bided our farewells. My closed eye visuals (CEV) were extremely intense, and Mandelbrot-like, so I decided to walk out about 50 feet into a moonlit pasture by a lake.

I looked up at the moon and the whole sky was melting and swaying away. The stars were extremely vibrant and almost felt like they were saying hello to me. The light from the moon became so complex as it came down and started forming transparent Merkabahs of light all around the earth. I decided to walk back to the bench, which was now a Stargate.

As I sat back down on the Stargate bench and drifted off, I felt the psilocybin ripping through every cell of my body until the density of my physical body dissolved away and I became a full light body. By transforming into a ball of light-energy I was fully able to surf through Hyperspace.

The only way I can describe the Hyperspace environment is to compare it to the movie scenes from the Matrix where everything becomes a green tinted computer reality code, except it was infinite sacred light matter, living geometry and God's presence.

As I was astral projecting through this reality I came upon a society. It was city-like—made of energetic emeralds, jewels and fractals. This jeweled, energetic fractal city was a society for entities that dwelled in this place. I was suspended in hyperspace, hovering by this city of light. It didn't matter what position I was in physically because my astral body took no form, in fact I lost complete contact with my physical form and only knew my astral form for some time. I experienced complete ego death, melting and stripping away my layers until I was reborn again spiritually.

I met many entities. Good and bad. I remember when Jason started talking about how he sees evil entities as well, and my awareness shifted to these beings that were in disguise and then revealed themselves in the Hyperspatial void. I greeted my demons and instead of fighting them, I accepted them as part of my reality and they subsided shortly. They took the form of humanoid elfin jesters with menacing grins.

Time was non-existent and non-linear so I felt as if I intentionally time-traveled thousands of years back, etherically, to an emotional coordinate in space and time where my soul and Jason’s soul were interacting at some point.

Once we realized it was 9:30 PM I told Jason that we had to start collecting ourselves and gain some composure. It was time to leave the Stargate bench and head home. The park closed at 9:00 PM and we were already well past our time to leave. Park security was patrolling and we knew they’ve seen us. As we walked to the car, Jason was freaking out about driving home. I couldn’t blame him. Our realities were still warping out of control. We couldn't even figure out how to turn the radio on. I then told Jason to trust God, the mushroom and the spirits to guide us back safely. The first 15 minutes of driving was so extreme. Lights, roads, cars, trees and everything in our vision was melting into each other. We had to focus on the lines on the road a few feet in front of us to drive accordingly.

Once we got to Coconut Grove, traffic slowed down and our realities were not as hectic as before. Things started to simmer down. We finally made it back to my condo in Brickell. We smoked some herb around this indigenous sacred site called "The Miami Circle" (connected to my building) which is famed for being one of eastern United States most prolific archeological discoveries. I somehow felt the spirits of the natives with me as we sat around the circle and smoked. Jason was good to drive and we said our farewells

I went into this journey with the intention to engage a sacred communion with transcendental intelligences and higher realms of existence to integrate knowledge into my life. I am now liberated. I wish I was exaggerating about my experience, but to be perfectly honest, I'm barely scratching the surface. Ever since that day, I haven't been the same. I feel as if I have shed many of my egotistical layers. I am more carefree. My senses and vibration feel more heightened; my dreams are more lucid and vibrant. Perspectives and priorities have completely shifted. The sacrament has healed me in so many ways. From now on I will only take the hallowed mushroom in a spiritual, medicinal and shamanistic manner. I feel these are not meant for recreational usage to consume at parties and watch carpets and walls move. This is solely meant as a gateway into the celestial domains (if enough is consumed).

I strongly feel that if our new age ways can learn to use the sacred mushroom for divine communion with the eternal we can initiate a rapid launch in consciousness evolution, and also strip away the layers of the ego; which could subsequently lead us closer to our true selves and to a better world.

20 Comments

Ryan

3/3/2015 03:14:30 am

Good stuff man!

Shawn Nowak

2/18/2018 08:32:25 am

Nice 👍

Samantha

3/14/2018 05:53:31 pm

Man I’d love to follow this guy on social media, but the link doesn’t actually lead to his twitter :/

Steven coker link

4/12/2018 08:28:47 pm

Man I've ate a half oz my self and never felt like this I'm gonna eat like 10 grams soon outside and see what happens

Eric

5/1/2018 05:01:30 am

Try Penis Envy specifically - I usually eat 3.5 - 4 grams for a regular trip but I tried 1 GRAM of Penis Envy and it felt like a 4-5 gram trip of regular shrooms.

Jett hecker

2/11/2022 05:17:48 pm

I tried 2 grams and it felt like I was on 14 grams. The most I took was 5 grams but penis envy on 2 grams transitioned me into a nightmare because I was completely not ready for that experience.

Ice berg Simmons

9/8/2019 09:22:57 pm

I've personally done 15 gs of mine and I was crawling on the ground and forgot my name it was a out of body experience. For sure doing higher amounts in the later years

Dallas

5/20/2018 12:10:30 pm

I decided to take a little over 2 grams of the penis envy strain and I can say they are the strongest mushrooms I have ever ate, I went to see Deadpool 2 in the movie theater just to try something different while I took them but this was a horrible idea, I first was uncontrollably happy and could kinda pay attention to the movie but then about 20 minutes in after I drank about a shot of orange juice I went completely into my mind I didn't know anything about anything going on around me and everything was very vibrantly colorful and i could feel so many different vibrations hitting me then I went into the fabrics of space and time and went through a billion dimensions and went through billions of years of time in every one of these dimensions eventually I came to a big ball of light that was circulating back into itself and it was the cycle of reincarnation as I got closer to it, it sucked me in and I lived life after life, I had a point in my trip where I came to a dimension full of different energies that had went through reincarnation over and over until they were worthy enough to be there with the great energy of god that we came from, and then it god bad cause I started seeing all the evil parts of everything and then started seeing the whole multiverse like a ying yang sign that was in an unstoppable loop, it's cool how our trips we're very similar stephen but the environment definitely made mine a bad trip but good at the same time

EnigmaticMe

7/27/2020 01:20:04 pm

I hit psychosis in the most beautifully awakening way.
As Dallas describes but in my experience I looped backwards until nothing was left. I died, was reborn and cannot unsee this in my every day life. I would do it again in an heartbeat. Next time I will surrender and enjoy.

Renata

9/13/2018 05:54:43 am

You write beautifully. I'd love to read some of your other work if possible.

I don't think I've had enough experience with mushrooms to try this yet but it's now on my bucket list.

Megan

11/18/2018 03:25:25 pm

My boyfriend and I recently consumed ~3 grams each of penis envy soaked in lemon juice like IDIOTS. We knew they were significantly stronger and he had done shrooms, LSD and DMT multiple times while I have only done shrooms a few times so I trusted his dosage. We sat down next to a fire in my backyard and about 45 minutes in they hit us both like a brick wall. The fire became intensely bright and frightening and I could not look at it or sit still. We both started to freak out a little and decided to go inside. Once inside I realized EVERYTHING I looked at was made of fractals and bright colors. I got pretty dizzy and closed my eyes and even then couldn't get away from the constant moving and spinning and color changing. I was extremely anxious and on the verge of completely losing it and kept looking at the time to see how much longer we had to go. I remember asking my boyfriend several times if he just gave me acid because I had no idea shrooms could be this intense or visual. We walked around the house and looked at and touched things and I eventually decided I needed to do some housework to calm down and feel connected with reality. I emptied the dishwasher with great difficulty as I couldn't think clearly and had to put away one item at a time. I then decide to go downstairs to do laundry and stared at the pile of clothes for what felt like 30 minutes watching them move and transform and sorting them in nonsensical piles not understanding how to load the laundry machine. While I was cleaning, my boyfriend was going back and forth between throwing up and laying my bedroom with the lights off. I still could not get control of my anxiety and joined him in bed. We laid there with my dog with our eyes closed for probably an entire hour. Things started to calm down soon after that and we continued to lay in bed and then it was very pleasant. Everything was connected and I could see the energy flowing through everything into everything else. I started thinking about my past experiences and recalled endless extremely specific moments from throughout my life as well as dreams I had long ago. It was very hard to discern dreams and thoughts from reality. It wore off as quickly as it came on and I was pretty relieved when I started to feel normal again. We have several grams more of the penis envy and I have no desire to ever take them again. While it was very cool towards the end, the anxiety and fright I felt during the come up and peak really overdid it for me. Word of advice: if you do consume penis envy mushrooms, do not take more 1-2 grams at a time.

Deedz

4/20/2020 03:47:41 pm

This is sounds almost identical to the experience I just had with my lady, around a fire in the backyard. I was tripping WAY too hard. I'm taking a break to digest the lessons, but I do plan on consuming them again, just at a lower dose.

wpw

3/31/2019 09:59:27 pm

shouldnt drive!

Daniel Shields link

8/9/2019 09:31:53 pm

I cannot wait to see what mushrooms can offer in the future of medicine. I hope that this magical plant would not be abused and misused. Everything, if used properly and moderately proves to be beneficial.

Fungus Amongus link

3/8/2020 01:53:58 pm

For one teonanacatl offers pure breakthrough therapeutic advancement and rewires you into a better version of yourself and is one of my sacred teachers. I'm a deep diving psilonaut who has come across a strain of penis envy thanks to a mate of mine who has mastered the art of growing your own majik fungi. There seems to be 2 strains with same name but one if far more potent, clean and always welcomes we into its sacred atomic beauty. This sacred Medici e taken with intention and true purpose to expand the power it bestowes on those who survive and enjoy with a smile no matter how strange and surreal it gets. I can't emphasize enough that those deep divers like me who can withstand the onslaught brought about by 5 gram doses of freshly dried enhanced PE strain will be psychologically stronger and you soon gain the ability to see throuht people down to their soul. It your accepted by the entity within fungi and shows you sacred knowledge and you integrate it I to your daily life, the quality of the life you once knew is all transformed into ultimately being limitless, you are god of your domain and your philosophy of life becomes revolutionized into a new world order where you yourself become a force to be reckoned with, Im a capturer of knowledge and a soul adventurer. No need for a psychiatrist, teonanacatl holds sacred knowledge of sorcerer's of antiquity. All ways treat it like medicine and teonanacatl will show you amazing mind blowing truth. It strengthens your will, do as thy will, shall be the whole of the law. For those chosen, teonanacatl shows you rituals meant for you.

Mike

10/7/2019 08:06:56 pm

All this on 2.5? Wow.... bs.

dikwite

11/22/2019 12:04:47 am

well ive not yet tried this strain that im aware of but am looking forward to some my girlfriend managed to get hold of an oz. through an old micologist friend of ours, weve been quite happy with a strain (white albino is what we were told) were getting, and i knew that cubensis varied fro location to location in various parts of the us and across the globe, but i was unaware of the extent cultivation had come to, anyhow i live in hawaii and on oahu in particular where the panaeleous or copilandia cayanescens .... "blue meanies" are abundant and ive dabbled in them both dried and fresh and those guys other than the psilocybe cayanescens i used to harvest all over arcata and south into san jose have been the strongest i have tried but i hear everyone talking about two two three gram doses, and though it may get me there im more of a 5 gram starting point for any new batch i may come across im now an old man at 45+ and plenty of exp with psychtropics and dont blink an eye at the thought of a 7 to ten gram dose, besides giving her the god dick for hours at a time im able once ive settled into my state of being ( since each adventure is new) been able to focus in on artwork and music at various points on my ride im looking forward to exploring some new territory with this p.e. strain and hope its as wonderful as you all have made them out to be thanks im dikwite and ill be reporting back after my adventure safe tripping to all and to all a pleasant high

rc gliders link

5/14/2020 05:47:49 pm

How fast does it take to colonize after first growth of these beautiful PE?

kimo romanowski link

7/28/2020 09:38:56 am

i can now report on this strain, ............ i was left ....... well ..... underwhelmed to say the least ..... as far as p. cubensis are concerned i felt the penis envy was left in envy at our encounter i was able to get 2z of p.e. and my first journey w/them i was not able to reach the boundry of inter dimensional space time i remained in fact in this solar system i was not given the power of the god dick which for my girlfriend was quite a disappointment, so that left a sizeable chink in my ego, also i gained no new knowledge no new anything, as i would aproach what i thought a point not encountered in the unconcioussness of space time there they were, all the others that had taken me before just kind of flatly acknowledging the p.e. in a sympethetic sort of way golden teachers and the almighty whitey hisself the albino with the most ..... standing at the foot of each path saying "beat you here again sorry bub"!!!! sooner than later the fun ran out for us both and we mutually decided we had exausted the amount of exploration that we were capable of together, but given the fact that it is p cubensis we would not terminate on a sour note we just simply agreed if this was all we would get lets go have fun with it anyway and revisit some of the space already explored and detail the map a little better which we did quite nicely so underwhelmed none the less i was in its potentcy happy we found something to look forward to when we communed again and we are able to both benifit in the ongoing relationship we share.... on the scale i weighed that first encouter i had it at 12.3gr. my g.f. tried to talk me down to 10gr i settled at 11.5 the scale has about .5 gr deviance on true its an old kitchen scale yeah so 11-12 grams and i was able to remain in this concioussness and opperate more or less as square as a mormon i did 14 gr my dose and was not much diff. if any at all..... white albino are by far more potent i really have to gear up for 7 grams of them or even golden teacher aloha

Mycroft

11/4/2020 12:36:40 pm

11.01.2020
12:00: ate 1 1/2 chocolate hearts infused with ? gms psiylocybe cubensis, penis envy strain
12:21: yawning repeatedly & eyes watering as well as feeling offset, generally – hurried to set up music while still able to operate my laptop. Media player scrambled the sequence but that’s OK. Music starts.

12:??: extremely rapid onset of flowing colors, music envelops me & I trip for 2 solid hours – beautiful, peaceful, harmonious, though without ego death – conscious of myself and my location, agreeable in every way – tripping deeply & enjoying every moment.
15:00: gradual re-entry lasting hours –

Conclusions: The deepest part of the experience came very early and was quite intense, full of colorful fractal imagery in constant motion. Very satisfying to my sense of artistic appreciation, though, seemingly without objective value or enlightenment. The music and the visuals blended wonderfully, bringing great pleasure to my senses, but details have not lasted to any significant extent. I was always conscious of myself as the person I am, tripping on mushrooms in my recliner and feeling somehow conspicuous – as if I were being watched by others who were evaluating me from out of sight. Passing the peak of the experience was quite distinct. I knew that I was over the top and on the long, slow descent. And this certainty brought a slight feeling of regret – wishing that I could sustain the peak or regain it by taking a booster dose. At the same time I knew this was not advisable or even possible considering my temporary state of physical debility. This feeling did not diminish my enjoyment at all. I also felt satisfaction at the prospect of future tripping. I did not have any encounters with other entities and felt no sense of an overseeing, intelligent presence. I noticed that the edges of things in the room – door, bookcase, picture frames – all seemed remarkably distinct. I remembered that this effect is apparently reported often enough as to have a name but I do not remember what that name is.
Physically, as seems always the case, my shoulders and neck were in a state of tension that I had constantly to try to minimize. My breathing was regular, even measured - inhaling deeply and exhaling through pursed lips as though blowing out a candle or playing a trumpet. This seems to release some of the tension. Again, I felt as if all my motions were subject to observation and evaluation – but by whom or from where was indistinct. In fact, it was I, observing myself from within. Overall, I’m glad I took this trip – finally successful after half a dozen failures in the past few months. I look forward to doing it again as often as is reasonable and harmonious with my life. I don’t feel as if I learned anything or overcame any obstacles but am by no means disappointed. I will consider higher doses in future since my prime motivation is not mere pleasantry but self improvement – not that the two are mutually exclusive. I am presently of the opinion that ego death – the loss of a sense of self – is necessary to attain objective enlightenment. My education continues.